Nope, I’m not awesome.

The truth is, I think I am awesome.  But I am not awesome.

Someone wiser than me recently explained to me that there are two extreme attitudes we can have in life.  This is my ultra-simple paraphrase.

1) We are awesome.  Everyone owes us.

2) We are not awesome.  We owe everyone.

There’s a famous Bible verse that reads “The first shall be last, and the last shall be first”.  Jesus lived that way, stooping so low as to wash his disciples feet.

I’m not like Jesus.  I don’t think I would be comfortable washing my wife’s feet.  I expect her to pick up my laundry.  I don’t always remember to take out the trash or fill up the dishwasher.

Even in writing this post, I think I’m awesome.  But I’m not awesome.  I really don’t want to wash someone’s stinky feet.  I just want to be comfortable in my own little world where everyone owes me.  That’s why I’m not awesome.

God’s working on that.

Can I change the world?

I had a dream when I was a kid.  I wanted to change the world.  I wanted to be BIG, I wanted to be FAMOUS, and I thought I could do it.  I was DIFFERENT, I was BETTER than everybody else, and no-one could stop me.

Somewhere in the middle of going to college, getting married, buying a house, having kids, working, going to church, starting a business… I learned I’m not as cool as I thought I was and the world is a lot bigger than I thought.  I don’t know how to reach everyone in my town, let alone my country or my world.  I also know that even if I could reach everyone, I don’t have a big enough ANSWER that anything I have to share can possibly help everyone.

So I’m not here to change the whole world.  I’m just not that awesome.  However I can make small changes that impact the people around me, so I’m going to focus on that instead and see what happens!